I Hear You
Please Get Off My Shoulder
Who is this person trespassing on my shoulder? How dare you interfere with my thought process. Although I do not ask, you are relentless in offering your opinion. Please know that I hear you. Over the years, I worked to tame your incessant reprimands and shoulds. Now often only a mere whisper - you linger on as an annoyance. The constant tug-of-war is exhausting, unproductive, and must cease.
I am no longer embarrassed to confess to your existence. For years I successfully hid you behind the facade of my work - my comfort zone.
Go ahead - judge me. You have done so for years - and harshly. Acknowledging your presence does not make accepting you even slightly palatable. However, discovering your identity provides relief and helps me view your untimely, unwelcome, and unconstructive comments within a new frame of reference.
You are remarkable in knowing how to remain hidden and soft-spoken until the perfect moment to attack. I can easily slip and allow your voice to penetrate my thinking and manipulate my actions. While I want to berate myself during these unpredictable occurrences, I applaud with enthusiasm instead. Yes, like exercising a muscle - I grow stronger as I experience each invasion. I now see you as an excellent coach, and I thank you.
As I delete the lengthy list of things you say I should do, or how to do, I swat you off my shoulder. I now have a definitive answer to the agonizing dilemma of your identity. Knowing this allows me a unique listening providing peace and freedom. Yes, the whispers continue, but I maintain an understanding and appreciation of their genesis and embrace only constructive criticism. I can now modify my perspective to what I once considered an unyielding annoyance - you, my dear friend, are me.
Psst - I hear you.
Under certain circumstances, you are welcome to stay.